Why I’m Going Back To Church

“If I obey Jesus Christ in the seemingly random circumstances of life, they become pinholes through which I see the face of God.” ~Oswald Chambers

Hi. My name is Erika Lynn Morrison. I have been intentionally engaged with the activity and developement of a post-congregational Christian community for the last 13 years of my life and I say it to you like a confession lest I forget that this expression was the bosom at which my faith nursed – where the Spirit cradled my transformation through daylight and dark, night watches; crooned over my broken skin and my blooming heart. It was a beautiful way to grow, the milk was nutrient-dense and precisely what I needed to strip, stand and stretchI learned how to toddle and walk and say, “Daddy” all over again before He taught me my own signals and sounds, the specific language He wanted me to speak – not at all a prescriptive word-power for the Christian course, but new abstractions from what had become tired and old.

(Can we all admit that our faith-speak has become–and is–old sometimes? That we’ve lost originality, even while serving an infinitely original God?)

All this cultivation came to pass under the careful watch and with the constant conversation of 20 or so other people who were going through the same growing strands and strains that I was. My God, this decade-plus was a good and dangerous delight (when that decade-plus wasn’t so busy being very damn hard) . . .

This narrative continues at Deeper Story today!!! Follow me THERE?! :)

 

6 Comments Why I’m Going Back To Church

  1. Caroline Starr Rose

    I’m a pastor’s wife and way church-y, so I’m unfamiliar with the term “post-congregational.” I have to say, though, that when I hear words like this, it always makes my heart ache.

    Believe me, I know the flaws of The Bride. We are a mess, we are cruel, we are self-righteous, yet we are His, yearning to glorify Him in the midst of our brokenness. In community. With accountability. With support. With shepherding.

    Please don’t think I’m scolding! It just makes me sad to hear how often believers walk away. Thank you for the glimpse into your world.

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    1. thelifeartist

      Oh . . . But, we didn’t “walk away”. Our community was just as much the “church” as any other Christ-gathering across the globe. We functioned much like an organized church would, just on a smaller scale – even then we chose this expression because it was an act of obedience to what God was asking of us.

      Do you feel like this is an “us and them” scenario? That is has to be one or the other? Or that one is “right” and the other “wrong”? Or is it possible that God calls different people to different expressions at different times during their story? (Not scolding, just curious!!!) :)

      Love,
      Erika

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  2. Caroline Starr Rose

    Sorry about the “walk away”. Those were strong and misspoken words. I guess as I mentioned earlier I am clueless about what “post-congregational” means. What I read in the term is that the Church isn’t enough. That’s what makes me sad.

    Of course, I’m bringing not a limited but a beyond out-of-touch understanding. Does this make sense?

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    1. thelifeartist

      Ahhh . . . I hear you! I think the “walk away” did throw me off a bit! Especially as we felt more like we were rather “walking towards” something. :)

      I think the painful truth (the part that makes you ache probably) is that the church quite often ISN’T enough. My husband and I would go to church (mind you, we live in the Northeast and church tastes different up here) and feel desperate because what was being offered to the congregation was such watered-down, milk-toast variety of Christianity. It. Wasn’t. Enough. After much prayer and conversation, our community felt prompted to do our own church. This was/is “post-congregational” to me, but NOT post-church because we were STILL the church. :)

      Love,
      Erika

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